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Saved from DistressFourteen years ago, just three weeks before I graduated from High School, I had my first abortion. Five months later, near my 19th birthday, I had my second abortion. Like millions of other women, I sacrificed the life of my unborn children on the altar of convenience and ignorance. Although I was not a Christian, deep down within my heart, I knew that what I had done was really an act of killing. I knew right, yet I lacked the faith and courage to do the right thing. Today I am able to accept the responsibility of what I did to my innocent unborn children, because God, through His word, has healed me.At age 21, I accepted Jesus Christ and asked Him into my life. I remember the night I knelt at the altar and prayed a sinner's prayer. The first sins I asked forgiveness for were my abortions. When I chose abortion I turned against everything God had created in my nature as a woman. I was made to be a giver of live, not a killer. I was made to nurture, comfort, and protect my children. Abortion damaged the mother heart which God had given to me. In 1989 I gave birth to my eldest daughter, Sarah. It should have been the most wonderful time of my life, but it wasn't. It was the single worst year of my life. Every time I held her warm little body, and smelled her baby skin, I remembered my first two children who had been aborted. The memories of my abortions started a tidal wave of sorrow, then anger and bitterness. It was tough for me to be a mom. I was mad at myself for having destroyed such precious little lies. I was furious at the clinic for not telling me the truth. And I was angry at God. After all, I was a Christian. Wasn't God supposed to bind up all my wounds and set me free from all the secret pain of the past? I knew God had forgiven me, I ha never trusted Him to heal me. In 1992 I participated in a post-abortion Bible study at Assist CPC. In the Bible study, I finally understood that I needed to be healed. God knew that until I learned to take my eyes off my personal pain regarding my abortions and set my eyes on His plan for my life, healing could never take place. The post-abortion Bible study is specifically designed to confront the pain of denial, anger, depression, relationship difficulties, and spiritual alienation. The single most precious truth I learned from that Bible study came from the 107th Psalm, verses 19-20: "Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble. He saved them out of their distresses. He sent His Word and healed them." The Lord impressed upon me that it was His word that would bring healing to my heart, not a multitude of counselors or sympathetic ears. My healing was no longer about who I am but who He is: His character, His truth, His will, and His word. By learning to apply His word to abortion, God healed the very place in my heart that was still hiding in the darkness. At times I still feel sad about my abortions and I cry for my children. Like so many women, when I left the abortion clinic in 1979, I thought my experience with abortion was over. It was over for the children I had destroyed, for they were with the Lord. But my struggle with abortion had just begun. In some ways, it will never be over, because I will always remember. But I know I serve a God whose faithfulness and love for me can overcome even the most devastating of human experiences. Abortion is one of the most devastating events in a woman's life. There are women today whose lives have been burdened by abortion. I encourage you to seek the Lord. He wants to heal you and make you whole. He can break the chains that abortion has bound you in. Jesus said, "And you shall know the truth, and the Truth will make you free." (John 8:32) --by a friend of Assist
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