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To Bradley, my aborted son

I pray you did not die in vain. What I mean is that even though I aborted you before you had the chance to live, I pray that my story will save other babies from the same fate.

When you were conceived, I was a very confused woman. Not because you were conceived, but because I didn't know who I was. I didn't know that God loved me and I was His child, made in His image. I carried guilt and shame around with me every day because I was sexually molested as a child and as a young teenager and I wrongly blamed myself for the abuse.

I had a great mistrust of men so I sought out other women to fulfill my needs. For 12 years I considered myself to be a homosexual. I was using marijuana and alcohol to dull the pain and escape reality.

So, you ask, how were you conceived? Because my job prohibited homosexual behavior, I dated your father to cover up my lifestyle. We spent a lot of time together and became friends. He talked me into having sex with him and I became pregnant.

I was very angry when I realized I had conceived. I decided I didn't want the responsibility. I didn't think of you as a baby, but now I know that God knew us all when we were in the womb (Psalm 139:13-16). I wish I could go back and change my mind so that you would be alive today. I believe now that adoption would have been a better answer for all concerned.

Six years after your death, I felt closer to hell than I did to heaven and I didn't like the feeling. My earlier teachings from the Bible stuck with me through the emotional rollercoaster I was on and I knew God was my only answer. I cried out for deliverance and He answered me. He brought me out of the much and placed my feet on firm soil.

It has now been two years since I let God begin to work in my life. God has hooked me up with two very caring ministries. First there was Regeneration (out of Baltimore, Maryland) that ministers to people struggling with homosexuality. Then He led me to Assist CPC and their post-abortion ministry. Through these two ministries, I have experienced God's forgiveness of my sins and His healing of my memories and emotions.

Today I am engaged to be married to a wonderful Christian man. My slate is clean and the joy I feel is a miracle. So, you see, Bradley, God can take our mistakes and turn them into blessings. He can redeem what Satan has done and I believe that God will ensure that you did not die in vain.

I pray that through Jesus Christ you will forgive me and we will be united in heaven.

I love you,
Your Mother